Something that I get really frustrated about is, I feel like I have a lot of creativity in me and a lot of funny ideas, but I don’t know how to channel them into something tangible to share with an audience. Every time I see someone I know finish a project that took a team effort, I’m happy for them and I’m proud for them, but part of me sulks because it kind of hurts my feelings that I’m never asked to be involved. There’s just this feeling of being invisible, like I have nothing to contribute. I may not have experience, but I’m always willing to learn. I was told once that I just need to speak up and maybe be a little more vocal about my desires, but I get the feeling that it’s not that easy. Especially not from what I’ve heard through first-hand accounts. I can’t help but get this high school clique vibe and that’s just not a game that I’m all that interested in playing.
So I guess the best plan of action for me is to do my own thing; learn on my own; not wait for someone to invite me to the party. Maybe once I finish up a few of my own projects and get a little experience under my belt I won’t be so invisible anymore. Maybe.